Why did I become the puppet of your life? I wondered.
Over the years, my life got revolved around you no matter how hard I tried to let go. It’s almost a month when I can finally tell myself all these is over. Certainly, I hope so.
I want to let go of everything that I have on hand, starting my next chapter of life. I want to tell myself how strong I can be. Sometimes, I just hid under the pillow telling myself I couldn’t.
I felt like a fool, I just loved you blindly. Today, I watched a drama and realise tat everything can be deceiving. Since I had lost that trust, why should I trust you again. I won’t be there for you anymore, I hope.
I can’t erase the memories, but I can cast them aside trying to pretend that all these years, nothing had happened between us.
I just want to be happy, and lead a carefree life. I fear commitment, I fear liars, I fear relationships, I fear everything. I’m still finding a reason to trust because you broke all the trust that I had in you. I had become a liar because of you, I couldn’t commit to a relationship because of you, I couldn’t move on because of you.
People says, there’s hate because there’s love. I don’t hate you, but I love you.
All I need is time for all these cool downs. Why can’t I learn from them, run away from this place, run to a place that is far far away.
I know, happiness will come to me one day.
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