I dont want to explain why.
I left Gordon, yes it’s selfish. But it would be worst if I continue this relationship. He’s nice and all, but … what’s the point of hanging on when he’s giving more than receiving and that I can’t love him like how he loved me.
When I asked, “To be loved, or to love”, many said it’s better to be loved and to love, some said to be loved.
My conclusion is to let go of this relationship. On the surface, it may seemed that we’re a loving couple. In the inside, we do have problems. But mainly, I think it’s solely my problems.
Don’t ask me anymore. I don’t want to think about it. I love the times that is spent with him, but I can’t have him anymore. There’s no point to continue when I don’t love him like how he love me.
I think it’s the best time to cool-off and think about what is it all about. I’m too ignorant. I’m in a pool of love, yet I hurt myself and the ones who loved me.
I tried cherishing this relationship and I did. People say, you can deceive the whole world but not yourself. And yes, I can’t lie to myself anymore. I know this is not going to work out. I rather cry now, heartache now.
对不起。
I didn’t break up with him for a third party.
